Stay at work, on a rainy day. I start to dial the number, waiting for someone across to pick up the phone. I heard someones's voice outthere, still hearing but couldn't say anything. My mouth's shut, my hand's shaking&cold, my head's spinning around, I couldn't control my self clearly. Still heard of his voice, but there's nothing I could do. A small part of mine still want him so much, but I dont want to screw anything, dont want to make my hubby feels bad, I just dont wanna make my husband feels sad&dissapointed. Oh god please help me, help me through out this problem. Just release me from the shadow of him, I couldn't do this anymore, plis god dont make more suffer from pain. Just get me out of him away, I need my new life with my new happy family, good kids and great husband, please god I'm getting crazy if u let me keep doing all of this.. Dont make me regreting what I've done before, it's for our own goodness, for a better life, for a bright future.. :) ;))
Saturday, March 15, 2008
The telephone..
Stay at work, on a rainy day. I start to dial the number, waiting for someone across to pick up the phone. I heard someones's voice outthere, still hearing but couldn't say anything. My mouth's shut, my hand's shaking&cold, my head's spinning around, I couldn't control my self clearly. Still heard of his voice, but there's nothing I could do. A small part of mine still want him so much, but I dont want to screw anything, dont want to make my hubby feels bad, I just dont wanna make my husband feels sad&dissapointed. Oh god please help me, help me through out this problem. Just release me from the shadow of him, I couldn't do this anymore, plis god dont make more suffer from pain. Just get me out of him away, I need my new life with my new happy family, good kids and great husband, please god I'm getting crazy if u let me keep doing all of this.. Dont make me regreting what I've done before, it's for our own goodness, for a better life, for a bright future.. :) ;))
